The last few weeks I have found myself distracted by, but probably more anxious about this time of the year. A time when it would seem it's intention is to celebrate life. To celebrate love. Yet, I find myself thinking about all the 'stuff' I am to buy. Who I am to buy the 'stuff' for. Where I will get the 'stuff' from and when I will have the time to get all this 'stuff'.
I feel conflicted. There is immense joy in giving. Huge joy. However, I realise that one of my 'gifts' is not in the 'ideal present' realm. I have this overwhelming anxiety that it isn't going to be right. It isn't going to be what they want. And so I feel compelled to avoid the who present section of Christmas. I feel I would rather not give any gift, than give the wrong one. I really don't like the feeling when I 'know' it isn't something that they like. I feel like I fail. Arrrrrr!
I would love to hear how others approach this time of the year. I'm not talking about being organised and checking off lists. I'm asking how people embrace the consumerism, or in fact if you challenge the consumerism. What do you do about all the 'stuff'?
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